Fast Forward
June 4th, 2023 was the last time I’ve written anything. I got lucky. I didn’t need the chemo IV infusions. I was able to take the pill for the following 6 months, however the dose was concentrated and much higher, going up again at the 3 month mark. Each month, for 5 consecutive days, I would take the chemo pill. It knocked me down pretty hard. I would just start to rebound after my dose, weeks later, and have to get ready to start the next round of chemo. By the time my dose was upped again in October, there was no comeback before starting the next dose. Permanently exhausted and not always with it, I struggled bad. The summer was long and hot and the sun wanted to kill me. I felt like I was always surviving in the level of Super Mario where the sun chases you. The humidity and heat waves in general made me physically and violently sick. I turned to marijuana to get me through everything and that was the only time I would go outside during the summer, unless the sun was do...